I always write something positive in my blogs, but I cant do it right now, because I dont feel it in my soul. I dont want to pretend that everything is good when it isnt, even if the reason is small, or at least smaller than it could be. No, I dont fall in love with a person who doesnt love me. I dont have problems with either my parents or my friends. I have problems with myself. For a moment I just feel lost. Lost in this life, lost in my dreams or aims or something else. I dont know whether you have such feeling, when externally everything is ok, but inside you everything sucks. I cant describe it, though I am still trying to do it.
I dont know what I want to do in my life. I am learning some bullshit in my university but I dont feel that it is mine, neither do I feel what is mine and what I need. So complicated…
I have some dreams but there is no aim and power to fulfill them, because I know what I want but I dont know why. Maybe I am repeatimg the same words and expressions again and again but it is what happening in my mind.. There is no purpose or something else in this blog, I just feel like I need to share my emotions somewhere and I thought it would help. Which didnt.