Sometimes we all live wearing rose-colored glasses. It feels like instead of seeing the reality how it is, we like to create an illusion of how we’d like it to be. We tend to ignore the red flags of our close people, don’t realize the mistakes we’re making, the wrong path we’re walking on.

Sadly, we don’t understand these things straight away. We start seeing those warning signs and our mistakes way later in life, when we look at our memories in retrospect. And that’s when it hits us – that’s why things were in a certain way. That’s why some unpleasant things happened, or something “good” didn’t.

I realized this once again just a couple of days ago, as I was rewatching some of my old photos of 5-8 years ago. It’s like suddenly you see the reality not blurred, but with a 4k quality, with each single detail pointed out so clearly, that you start thinking, was I that blind to not see those things? Was I that immature snd stupid? Because right now it seems so obvious, so how could I be so unobservant just a few years ago? Why didn’t I notice the “red flags” or “toxic traits” and even manipulations of those people whom I considered close? Why did I keep ignoring the things I was doing wrong?

You know, on one hand it’s good that you see and understand those things at least a few years later. But on the other it’s kinda sad when the illusionary world you had gets collapsed. Cause it’s always pleasant to look back at certain events or people and remember only the good and fun parts, even feel nostalgic for a while. But when you start realizing that things weren’t as ideal as you thought, that is a little depressing.

Another thing it made me think about – what if I’m just as oblivious about nowadays, as I was all those years ago? What if now I also look at things and people, see their good sides and not pay attention to the bad ones? Though, I guess, that’s hardly the case, since throughout the time I’ve developed trust issues and doubt everything, which is just another extreme, as you see enemies and hazard everywhere. So, becoming totally pessimistic isn’t a solution either.

I reckon the answer is to have special kind of spectacles, where one of the glasses is still rose-colored, giving you hope and optimism, the ability to see beauty and good in people and life in general. The other glass should be crystal clear and transparent, so you won’t lose touch with reality, no matter how hard and complicated it gets. Maybe in that case you’ll stay realistic but won’t get bitter about the difficulties and will still believe in the good. These were some random thoughts of the day.